Wednesday, December 29, 2010

The Birth Of My Son



For me, this week not just about the joys of Christ's birth but also the joys of family. 10 years ago this week my life changed forever.  My first-born, my son was born.  It was the best day of my life (next to the later births of his sisters).

It was possibly the longest week of my life.  Signs of my labor began Christmas day.  The actual labor started on Dec. 26th.  I can remember walking miles with my best friend in the freezing cold, still feeling quite warm myself, trying to walk my boy out and increase our labor.  I remember the squeezing pain as a contraction hit and breathing through it, praying God would be good to us and would take care of my sweet baby boy.

The next day was no better and at some point I went into the hospital to be checked but was told it was not time yet.  My contractions were too irregular. 

On December 28, 2000, I called my doctors office and begged for an appointment with my midwife.  I was told to come in right after lunch, so I did.  I walked for two hours around the office while I waited for my midwife to be able to squeeze me into her busy day, all the while being monitered by nurses.  Finally, she was able to take me back and check but there was no major changes, though she did "accidently" break my water while checking me.  I will never forget the look on her face or the "opps!" that came out of her mouth when that happened.  I was told to call who I needed, gather my things (we lived in a small town at the time) and go straight to the hospital.

I went home, called my son's father, gathered my stuff and ate 4 bowls of spaghetti with light sauce before heading back to the hospital.  It was around 4pm when I finally got there. 

All seemed to be going well.  I arrived and was immediately taken into the back.  I was hooked to moniters.  The midwife said we'd be a while waiting on this boy to arrive.  My DH left to get himself something to eat but before he was out of the room good the midwife returned to tell me something was wrong.

My monitors showed that my heart rate was increasing and my baby's was dropping.  We were in too much stress.  I wasn't dilating past 1 and my boy was ready to come out.  He was under excessive stress and so was I.  A c-section was necessary for a safe arrival.

By this time, I could feel myself floating out of my body and I knew something was wrong.  I was scared for my son and I didn't want to lose him before I even got the chance to hold him.  I immediately agreed to the c-section.  It was around this time that my then-husband returned, after my Dad tracked him down, banged upon our door to wake him and got him back up to the hospital.  His only disagreement was that he didn't like my surgeon but by this point I just wanted it all over and our baby to be safe and sound. 

I don't remember much after that.  It all went so fast.  The pain was intense and I remember biting down on my DH's finger, concentrating on not hurting him, to get through the contractions.  It wasn't long before I was rolled into the ER, put to sleep and in surgery.  My beautiful boy was born to his sleeping Momma at 6:07 pm on December 28, 2000.

When I came out of surgery, I was in so much pain.  The doctors had me hooked onto an IV/Morphine drip but I was unable to get out of my bed.  My DH and my Mom greeted me with a picture of my beautiful boy, all fat and swollen from his birth with a perfectly round head.  His heart-rate was a little off and his grand-father's heart specialist had him in a incubator running tests to make sure he was strong and heathly before they brought him to me.  It was the longest 6 hours of my life, at that point.

On December 29, 2000, right after midnight, the nurse brought my sweet boy to me, placed him into my arms and in this moment my life forever changed for the better. I knew what my life was meant to be, who I was meant to be - his mother.  I was and forever am, the mother of Winston Lee Grant.  I could not imagine a better job than this one, even on that day I could not imagine how wonderful this job was going to be.

10 years have passed since that day, that moment but I still remember it like it just happened.  I can feel the weight of his sweet body as it lay in my arms.  I can feel his weight as he grew into the tall boy he now is today.  He made my arms full, and my heart fuller.  The joys of Heaven brought to Earth through a small child.  There is no better feeling than knowing you love and are loved by someone so precious and sweet.

My son has grown into a handsome, caring, hard-working young man.  His heart is patient and peaceful.  Some day he will be a wonderful father and husband.  For now, he's a wonderful son.  His hugs bring my heart peace.  His smiles bring me joy.  His laughter makes my heart ring with love.  He is everything I never knew I wanted and his life is the meaning of mine.  Being his Mother is the best gift I have ever received, the best job I will ever have.  I am forever Thankful for this child who is blessing my life.  I know how God feels as a parent to each of us.  Unconditional love.  <3

Sunday, December 26, 2010

My 2010 and 2011 Resolutions

About a year ago I made my resolutions for this year.  There were quite a few of them.  Some I completed, or at least worked on and some I never managed to get off the ground.  All were well worth the efforts.

This year I spent changing my own life, who I am and how I see things in the world.  I worked on forgiving others, expanding my own mind, becoming closer to God, building my friendships into even stronger ones, and supporting others that God placed in front of me.  I'm proud of the changes in my life.  I still have a lot to learn but every day I'm happier with who I am. 

I also spent the year getting my life and my house organized.  I'm loving it!  An organized life is soo much better.  Having things in their place is the best.  Organization is something I have struggled with my entire life and having accomplished getting closer to my goal is a wonderful feeling.

For the coming year, I would like to complete my organizing efforts by decluttering, storing things better, and finshing what I've already started for storing inside the house.  I'd like to get the kids rooms organized and sort toys into bins that can be swapped out for easier living.  By the end of 2011, I hope to have our lives completely organized and done with.

I would also like to create a healthier lifestyle for us as a family.  I plan to work out almost daily with my Wii Fit and also create a physical routine for the kids.  I want to add more veggies and healthier foods into our diet.  I also want to cut back on Pepsi for myself.  I look forward to feeling better inside and out with these changes and encouraging these good habits in my children too.

This year I will be handing a lot more chores over to the kids, using Managers of Their Chores to help guide me.  I feel the hard work will be good for their self-esteem and also for their unity in our family.  Plus these chores will be much needed life-skills for them one day.

I would like to begin our science (Botany) by February so that during the spring we can make a garden for them to reap and sow.  The kids will really enjoy that I know.

I look forward to a wonderful year filled with much needed changes in ourselves and much joy with one another this year. 

Happy New Year to each of you!

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Ready for Christmas! {Christmas Eve 2010}

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and I'm happy to say we are all ready for Christmas. 

My Mother came to town on Monday and she has since been busy helping me decorate.  We actually began the decor yesterday after 3pm and finished up at 12pm today, sleeping through the night of course!  We put small trees in each of the kids rooms, plenty of stockings hanging everywhere, two trees fully covered (our main one and Emma's candy tree on the kitchen countertop.  Even the laundry and bathroom have decorations.  I kept the outdoors simple by hanging wreaths without bows and a winter flag on the porches, with a red light on our front porch and a green one at the back door. A decorated Christmas wreath hangs upon the front door.  Santa and Frosty greet everyone on the back porch.  As every year, the drunken elf hit each of the deer leaving chaos throughout the deer antlers inside the house and baby Jesus is sweetly nestled in His manger awaiting the day of his birth to arrive.  The kids are sooo excitedly thrilled at all of the Christmas decorations, though they were very sad to have Mama leave to go to their Aunts for Christmas.

Tomorrow will be a very busy day for us all.  Josh is going duck hunting in the morning, then he's supposed to come home around lunchtime to take the kids to get out of my hair while do something fun while I help Santa out wrap the montage of gifts.  We go to our annual Christmas Eve dinner with Ms. Jean around 5pm, drive around after to look at Christmas lights, then back home to finish up Christmas cookies, reindeer feeding, Milk and Cookies for Santa, open our Christmas Eve gifts and to bed they go while I stay up all night finishing the present wrapping.

By Saturday we are supposed to have snow so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that there will at least be a little for Christmas morn.  Regardless, we will be up between 6am and 7am, cracking open the packages, playing with all the fun new stuff, and filling up on yummy cookies, milk and egg nog for breakfast.  Later in the day we head next door to Grami's to open gifts there, then back home to play for the rest of the night. 

The kids I can hardly wait.  I love this time of year.  I love spending time with my babies and seeing their sweet faces on Christmas morning. 

It's gonna be a great weekend yall! 

Merry CHRISTmas to everyone!!! 

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Update on us {Christmas Prep 2010}

Life has been pretty busy lately. 

The kids spent a week with their Aunt and cousin at the beginning of the month for their cousin's birthday.  They had a blast and got pretty spoiled with love while they were there. 

Last week my best guy friend came to stay and help me clean out house.  He was a HUGE help.  The usual chaos is now tame again.  It was super awesome to have someone get up with the kids, vacuum, dust, straighten and do the dishes before I managed to crawl my butt out of the bed every day.  My house feels so much calmer now that the chaos has diminished and I cannot wait to get what's left completed so that it feels all the better!  I have to say a HUGE HUGE thanks to my buddy for being generous enough to take a week out of his life to help me out!  Thanks Bro!!

Now we are waiting for Mama to come (my Mom).  She'll be here til January loving on the babies.  They are sooo excited too.  Everyday they ask when she will arrive.  Tomorrow night is the Big Day.  Emma was up late because she knows I talk to Mama late and she needed the reassurance that Mama would be coming to see her sweet self soon.  Now she's thrilled and sound asleep ready for tomorrow to get here.

Today I finally put our tree together and layered it in lights.  1100 lights to be exact.  It's a glowing beauty.  I prefer an artificial tree because it's less mess to clean up when I put it away.  I prefer colored lights to white.  To me the candy like glow equals Christmas.  Can't beat it!  Tomorrow I am doing some other decorating in the house and Tuesday we will decorate the tree with Mama's help.  The kids are sooo looking forward to that!

We finished up the Christmas shopping yesterday too.  I had a few last minute items I ordered.  I'm hoping everything comes in on time.  Next year I hope to have everything done much earlier than this year.

The rest of the week will be a busy one, filled with family, baking, decorating, present wrapping and gifting.  It goes quickly by and can be extremely tiring but is so very worth it.  Three days after Christmas brings the JOY of my baby boy's 10th birthday.  I can hardly believe he's almost 10.  It seems like just yesterday that I delivered him so close to the day we celebrate Jesus' own birth. 

I'm praying everyone has a wonderful and blessed Christmas weekend.  I pray God blesses each of you and you have all the joy your heart wishes for this Christmas season. 

Until next time...

Friday, November 26, 2010

Black Friday 2010

I am online at 4am on Black Friday.  I was so excited to do my Christmas shopping online that I could not sleep.  I know my kiddos are going to enjoy their surprises this year and I know I'm going to enjoy mine also!  I'm not big on Black Friday shopping.  I refuse to go out into the crowds waiting in front of the stores.  There is nothing out there that I want bad enough to even attempt that.  However, I did do my shopping online this year and I was able to get some pretty awesome things.  I'm really happy with that.

I have a few free codes on photos that I am using this year to create gifts, so when I couldn't sleep I decided to upload pictures onto those sites.  Let me just say, I was not thinking well when I made that choice.  Two hours later and I'm still waiting for the pictures to finish uploading so I can create my gifts. 

Oh, before I forget, Happy Thanksgiving Yall!  I hope that everyone had a better day than I did.  I was sick in my bed all day with a sinus cold.  My sweetie was supposed to bring me back a meal but instead only brought back ham, out of all the holiday goodness.  My fault for not going I guess, or perhaps it's just his weird family.  Personally, I think it's the later.  But tomorrow I will make up for their lacking and create my own Thanksgiving meal for me and my little babes.  Oh, how sweet it is gonna be (for someone just throwing it together with no real plans).  It'll be a great memory, I promise ya that!

It will just be me and the kids for most of the day.  Josh is all ready to go duck hunting in the morning.  The boat is gassed up and hooked to the truck.  The gun is loaded and waiting in his truck.  His gear is laid out for him to wear.  Yep, those ducks better look out because he's coming to a river nearby.  In the time I've known him, I haven't known him to shoot a single one but there's always a chance.  I believe, secretly he just enjoys going to look at the beauty of them.  It's his thing, Duck Hunting.

And when he comes in from doing his thing, I'll have some great food ready to eat (I hope).  I can hardly wait.  Until next time... Happy Black Friday to all!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Finding God in Children's Disobedience

Recently, my dear friend made a blog post about depression on her blog.  In it, she spoke of how God looks at depression in us.  All the things she posted she backed up with biblical reference.  One of her mentions really struck me as truth in my own life.  She mentioned that God changes children's attitudes when you are depressed, and even when you're not, in order to bring us to our knees.  This is so very true in my life.

My beautiful daughter, Emmalee, who I mentioned last night in my post about sickness, is possibly my strongest, and my hardest child to raise.  She wants things her way and will do everything to make that possible.  She doesn't throw fits, she doesn't whine and cry but instead she will just do what she wants regardless of consequence or respect of my wishes.  She is a messy but inspirational child.  She is a loving but needy child.  A perfect balance of good, and not-so-good all in one.  And her little sister is not far off from her either, attitude-wise.  Both of them are a true test for me in parenting, faith and life

I have been looking for ways to deal with them, to learn how to live with their strong spirits and raise them as God wishes, teaching them to use their unique qualities to work for the Lord, instead of themselves.  It never really dawned on me that part of their attitude is from the Lord, in order to change my own ways of life and my own attitudeGod wants to bring me to my knees.

Why would I think that, you may be asking?  Why would I think that God wants to bring me to my knees by causing me strife with these two beautiful children, or how could I even think that?  Well, God wants all of us to be closer to him.  He wants us to get down on our knees and call out to him, begging him to help us so that we are fully dependant upon him for guidance, love, and help.  God is meant to be our encourager, our best friend, our Father and our confidant.  It is the way of the world to turn us away from these things with him, the way of Satan to pull us apart from our Loving Father in Heaven.  By bringing us to our knees, God is bringing us Home to Him, home where we belong.  He is forcing us to pay attention, to listen to His Divine guidance, to share in His love and to share His love with our children and others. 

Disobedience in children is all a part of God's bigger plan to bring joy to our lives and our lives closer to him.  This whole concept has completely changed my view in life when it comes to my children's attitudes.  It has helped me in my journey to be a better parent.  This concept has challenged me, has shown me the truth behind what God wants from me.  The crazy part is that it was there the WHOLE time, but I was just too stubborn to listen.  Well, I am listening now and I am thankful for the sweet lady who God led to write this blog post on depression, for it has truly changed my own life and those of my children for the better.


"Don't make God yell, listen the first time."
- A friend from my past.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Praise in the Midst of Sickness

Tonight I sit here with my beautiful 7 year old daughter.  She is sick with a sore throat and fever.  I gave her tylenol that has helped break the fever for now and honey which has soothed her little throat.  I pray for her and give Praise to the Lord for blessing me with this strong, faith-filled little girl.

Times like this make me realize just how much I love this little girl.  Sometimes in the midst of the busy-ness of life, I forget just how little she really is.  In the pace of today's world, children are grown before you blink your eyes.  Seven year olds often act like pre-teens and in turn are treated as such.  But nights like tonight remind me that she is indeed only seven, just a baby who needs her loving mother's care.  I thank God for her and praise him in her time of sickness. 

Times like tonight remind me how easy it would be for the Lord to call her home.  How quickly she can be taken from me.  Times like tonight reminds me how much I should appreciate the Gift of her being, of her belonging to me, even for this short season of life.  God has entrusted me to raise and love this child of His, to guide and take care of her.  He's entrusted ME, of all people, ME.  He is wise, He knows best and for this I am thankful, for this I give Him praise and teach her to praise Him, even at her worse.  He will not fail either of us.  He is the Great I Am, Father of Heaven and Earth and all the Universe.

(Luke 8:48 NKJV) And He said to her, "Daughter, be of good cheer; your faith has made you well. Go in peace."

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Start! The Bible for New Believers {Bible Review}

Greg Laurie
Thomas Nelson Publishing
Available in a variety of book styles
Price ranges from $7.99 - $59.99 depending upon style.

This book is a creative explanation of the Bible for new beginners, and old readers. It was written to better explain the meaning of the Bible and it’s books to new believers. And Greg Laurie does an excellent job explaining it throughout the book.
It is written in the NKJV style beginning with the Plan for Salvation, in which Mr. Laurie explains what Salvation truly means and how Jesus gave his Life for each of us to live. The second chapter discusses the Secrets to Spiritual Success, or better put How to be a Christian. In this chapter he shows us what God expects of his flock and how to relate it into our lives. Throughout the rest of the book, in the front of each biblical chapter, Mr. Laurie has provided a summary of the purpose of each book and the meanings of important key words, like the bible chapter’s name, as well as other important tidbits every Christian should know. Also throughout the book, the author has provided Grow, Learn and Know sections further explaining what is being read. At the end of the book, Mr. Laurie has provided a section called Essentials/What every Christian needs to Know about God and Jesus, where he highlights different topics on the two and discusses what they mean to us as Christians. I believe that Greg Laurie has provided a thorough introduction and study bible for new Christians by writing Start! The Bible for New Believers.

Now according to Booksneeze, I’m supposed to read this book from cover to cover but with this type of book that could take quite a while, so I have briefly read through Mr. Laurie’s introductions to several of the Bible’s books. I find what’s written to be inspiring and encouraging to me as a Christian, always learning more about the Lord. I am definitely planning to use this book as a bible study for myself to learn more about what the bible truly means and how it relates to my life. I feel it’s going to be a great help to me, as well as others who choose to read it. It’s one book I truly recommend.
 
You can download a free chapter on the Gospel of John at Start! The Bible for New Believers.



Wednesday, November 17, 2010

A Band That Has Gotten Me Through {30 Days of Truth - Day 13}

Today's Truth: A band that has gotten me through tough times.

I don't think there is any one single band that has gotten me through.  I am a music lover.  I listen to all kinds of music, from all genres.  I love Christian music, rock, big hair bands of the 80's, country - both old and new, 60's bop music, and much more.  I love everything from Sugarland to Staind to Mandy Moore.  I have several song favorites too and could never pinpoint just one.

Medicine Side-Effects in Epilepsy {Epilepsy Awareness}


Having Epilepsy generally means taking medicine to control it.  There is a large range of available medications for control of seizures and each comes with their own side effects.  Some of the side effects are managable and others are not, so you should always read up on a medication, ask questions to both your doctor and pharmicist and know what your side effects are for that medication, as well as other drug interactions.

Our family has taken the following medications over the years: Phenobarbital, Trileptal, Dilantin, Lamictal, Keppra, and Carbatrol. Currently Laycie is taking Carbatrol.  Medicine dosage is important.  Too much can lead to severe side effect symptoms and too little can result in seizure. 

Here are some examples of the side effects of these medications and how they have affected our family:

Phenobarbital can cause over-excitement and hullicinations, as well as rash and itching.  I personally suffered all of these as a result of this medication. 

Dilantin can result in the same side effects and I also suffered these from the medication.

Trileptal can cause extreme drowsiness, lack of appetite and speech impairment.  Laycie suffered all of these side effects while taking this medication for her first two years.

Carbatrol can result in over-excitement, severe hyperactivity or ADHD type symptoms, insomnia, lack of appetite, rash, and itchiness.  Laycie has suffered all of these symptoms from this medication also.

For Laycie, the Keppra stopped working after two weeks without warning.  The doctors give no reason as to why.

As I stated above these are examples of how these medications' side effects have effected our family.  This does not mean they will effect your family in the same way, and should not be viewed as such.  As a patient, parent or loved one of someone with Epilepsy, you should read up on the facts about the medication your family member is taking and pay special attention to the side effects so that you know what is normal and common and what is not.  Some of these side effects can be dealt with in other ways but some can have severe and dangerous effects.  Our family is lucky that it is not the case for us.  Our side effects are mild, thankfully and easy to live with.  <3

Friends {30 Days of Thankfulness - Days 12-17}

I realize that I have fallen behind on posting what I'm thankful for this week.  I've truly had a lot going on at home and barely any time to write.  So to make up for it I'm doing on massive post for days 12-17.  What am I thankful for?  My friends, who are very much family to me. 

I'm thankful for my bestie, Tamara, who is ALWAYS there when I truly need her.  She goes far and beyond the call of friendship, especially when I need her most.  She gave me a roof over my head when I had no where else to go.  She fed me when she didn't have to and I had no money.  She is so much more than a best friend.  She's my sister from another Momma.  My twin I call her.  I'm more thankful for her being a part of my life than she will ever know.

I'm thankful for my Kimmie.  She, too, is always around when I need her.  Just today she was there helping me to straighten out a mess.  She helps me and everyone she loves, in everyway she can.  She's always there with great advice, even when she's super busy or can't be there in person.  I'm thankful she is in my life.

I'm thankful for Cory, my best best guy friend.  He's my shoulder to cry on.  He gives the best hug when all the world is wrong.  He's also a awesome Cleaning Fairy and a big help to reach the top of my shed.  I'm thankful for him always being there for me.

I'm thankful for Mama J aka Jeannie.  She pushes me to do better.  She's an awesome role model having been through so much in her life and still come out standing strong.  She's a lot of fun to hang out with, a great dancing partner and is not afraid to stand up for those she loves.  I'm always thankful for her love and guidance in my life.

I'm thankful for Shaun, who has been my best friend for almost 20 years.  Though we haven't always gotten along the best, she will always be my sister and has made huge impact on my life.  The things we've been through together will forever keep us bonded and I'm thankful for our friendship, for all the tears we've shared, and all the laughs too.  I am thankful she's always been there and always will be.

I'm thankful for Cecia, who has been a bestie of mine since middle school.  I'm thankful for all her craziness.  I'm thankful for our fun times and her being there through some pretty tough years.  I know we don't get to hang out anymore but I'm thankful that we are still able to call each other friends.

If you weren't listed above, it doesn't mean that you aren't important to my life.  I'm thankful for each friendship I have.  God has brought some pretty awesome people into my life.  Most are more than friends and instead brothers and sisters.  Their existance in my life is encouraging and truly a blessing.  I'm a lucky girl for certain.  Thank you all for blessing my life. <3

Photo Cards from Shutterfly {Product Review}

My favorite Christmas cards have always been the assorted boxed kind you can pick up in any retail outlet nearby. I love the differences in the cards, the fact you can personally choose a card for a person or family inexpensively. Let’s face it Christmas card costs add up when you choose them separately for your loved ones. Assorted pre-boxed cards lessen this cost for families on a budget (like mine). Add in the extra fun of seeing the different cards when you open them, knowing they will be adorable but not knowing which cards are inside. It’s a holiday tradition for me.


My second favorite Christmas card is the personalized family picture card. The fact that someone took the time to send you a photo card they had made or made themselves is always a sweet gift. Displaying this type of card brings the family to mind more than old fashioned cards do because with just one look you know who sent it. Plus you are getting a one of a kind card that few other’s will get to enjoy. You can frame the card later or pull it out the next holiday season and display it with the new Christmas card, reminding you of the changes a year can make.

This year I’ve decided to do photo cards for Christmas, thanks to a promo through Shutterfly to bloggers. Shutterfly is a wonderful company that provides photo products to it’s customers, like photo cards, photo enlargements, prepaid portrait plans, birthday and other holiday cards, Home D├ęcor like Canvas and Mounted Wall Art, photo gifts like mouse pads, photo mugs, ornaments, and even a deck of playing cards. That is just the beginning of all the personalized things Shutterfly has to offer it’s customers. How great is that?! Stop by Shutterfly today to see all the great things they have to provide.

And post a comment telling me about your favorite Christmas or Holiday card.  I love hearing from you all!


Monday, November 15, 2010

Busy, Busy, Busy {Update November 15, 2010}

I've been falling behind on my 30 day blog posts but that's no surprise with me! LOL  Sometimes life gets so busy that I just don't have time for all the writing I need to do, or much else for that matter. 

This weekend brought a good amount of balanced cleaning and relaxing, along with a great visit with a friend.  My best guy friend came over to help me move some boxes into storage.  It was a great help, of which I'm very appreciative to him for.  Got some stuff up into the lofts of the storage building and some Christmas stuff where it can be accessed better.  Also had my kitchen cleaned, dishes washed up, laundry caught up, living room vacuumed, kitchen floor mopped, amoung other things.  I am truly, truly grateful to my friend for all of his help!

Now this week, I really need to go through several things.  I need to get the rest of the boxes out or put away and get ready for Christmas.  I need to go through the kids rooms and get rid of more stuff before they get new things to add into the mix.  I think decluttering their toys by half again would be the best idea.  It's going to be a LOT of work but it'll be worth it in the end.

I've been trying to read a lot lately too.  I have a TON of books to read this month and next.  Right now I'm reading Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge.  This is a wonderful book.  Look for my review in the future.

Ok, now time to get busy and get it all done!  Later yall!

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Never Get Complimented For {30 Days of Truth - Day 12}

Today's Truth: Something I Never Get Compliments On

I never get compliments on the bad language I have a terrible habit of using daily.  I'm trying my hardest to break this habit but it's hard when  you live with a truck driver.  I'm getting better everyday and I know when it's appropriate to hold my tongue but I still feel I use my potty talk way more than I want to or I should. But hey, at least I can admit it!

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Compliments {30 Days of Truth - Day 11}

Today's Truth: Something I get a lot of compliments on.

I truly get a lot of compliments on my cakes.  People love the flavor of both my cakes.  They most especially LOVE the home-made icing that normally tops my cakes.  They are always a crowd pleaser and normally people end up taking an extra piece or two home with them just to have later on.  I've been told I should bake cakes professionally but my main job is being a Mom and it doesn't allow a lot of time for extra activities.  Maybe one of these days though!

Friday, November 12, 2010

Someone I Need To Let Go {30 days of Truth - Day 10}

Today's truth: Someone I need to let go

The old me... the one who was childish and stubborn.  The young girl who cared more about her appearance than anything else.  The lazy me, that didn't know how to clean a dish or pick up a shirt and put it back on a hanger or fold it up into a drawer.  The dependant me, who relied on everyone to do everything for her. 

Today I am a grown woman.  I struggle with this old me.  I fight her off daily because it could be so easy to lapse back into her undisciplined self.  I prefer the new me.  The mother, the wife, the daughter, sister and friend.  The one who can love her babies while cleaning her house.  The one who can hold her fiance's strong hand when he's tired.  The woman who prays for every need she comes across and loves her family with a whole and open heart. 

I am enjoying this person I am still growing into.  I am loving the changes that God has made in me.  I'm not perfect by any means but I'm more perfect than I was yesterday or last week.  I look forward to learning more and to becoming the woman God wishes for me to be.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Thankful for Peaceful Passing {30 Days of Thankfulness - Day 11}

Today I am thankful for Josh's great-grandmother's peaceful passing this week.  Katie Fulton was 104 years old.  She lived a long and full life.  She was a loving christian wife, mother, grandmother, great-grandmother and great-great-grandmother.  She was blessed to see so many generations of her family and her family was blessed to be able to share so many generations with her.  I never had the chance to meet her personally, as she has been in a home for the past few years but I'm thankful to have been able to know of her.

Someone You Didn't Want To Let Go {30 Days of Truth - Day 9}

Today's Truth: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Several years ago, I met a great person through my husband.  This guy was hard working, and strong in his faith.  A true blessing to my life and my best friend. 

A lot of people didn't understand our relationship and thought there was more to it than "just friends".  They felt it was best that we cut our ties and no longer talk with each other. 

Eventually, he chose to follow this advice and well I haven't talked with him since.  I understand why he chose to do this, as he was a lot younger and the opinion of his family was extremely important to him. 

There is not a day in my life that I don't miss his friendship, his strong christian guidance, his encouraging words and hugs and his dependability.  I am thankful for the season he was a part of my life because it forever changed my faith in God above.  I know he is happy in his life and for that I'm thankful and I am also thankful for the brief period I was able to call him my friend. 

Someone Who Made My Life Hell {30 Days of Truth - Day 8}

Today's truth is someone who made my life Hell.

My ex.  Simple as that.  He led me to believe he was something he wasn't.  He twisted things to get his way.  He twisted everything I'd say into things it was not.  He'd lie to get his way.  He held me down by laying his over 200lbs of body weight on top of me, claiming I was out of control, while I was pregnant with my daughter.  He would spanked my daughter until he left deep bruises on her butt and backside.  He was cruel to my son, in ways I no longer wish to remember or think about.  He's a sick, pathetic excuse of a man and I'm thankful everyday that I was able to get myself and my children away from him.  The Hell he put my children and I through was inexcusable and I thank God that we no longer have to deal with that. <3

1 Thes. 5:18 {30 Days of Thankfulness Day 10}

In every thing give thanks for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. 1 Thes. 5:18

Need I say more?  Giving thanks for ALL He gives to me. 

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Tongue Swallowing in Seizures {Epilepsy Awareness}


A common myth in Epilepsy is the belief that a person can swallow their tongue.  Once upon a time, it was advised that a person place a spoon into the mouth of a seizing person to prevent them from swallowing their tongue.  In recent years, Doctors have discovered that this is actually one of the worst things you can do for a seizure patient. 

FACT: A person CANNOT SWALLOW their TONGUE.  The little piece of skin underneath your tongue prevents it from being swallowed. 

FACT: Placing a spoon into a seizing persons mouth can be extremely dangerous.  It can gag the person.  It can become lodged in the persons throat.  It can be jabbed into the back of the mouth causing serious damage. 

FACT: The tongue can close over the opening in the throat preventing a person from breathing during a seizure.

The best way to prevent a person from having this happen is to roll them onto their side during a seizure.  This allows the tongue to fall forward and remain in a normal position preventing blockage to the throat, thereby preventing blockage of air during seizure.  It is also best to try to help a seizing person onto the ground away from sharp or hard objects to prevent further injury during a seizure episode. 

To learn more about seizures, and to become Seizure Smart please visit http://www.getseizuresmart.org/ today!!

Life In General {30 Days of Thankfulness Day 9}

Today I'm thankful for life in general.  It goes by so fast, can end so quickly.  Each day is a cherished moment we cannot get back.  I'm thankful that I have the opportunity to live, that God has blessed me with as many days as He has, for I know he could come calling at any moment to take me home.  I'm thankful for each day with my children, for every moment He allows them to remain here.  I hope they live a long life and I do too, so that we are both able to see grandbabies and great-grandbabies and share our great joy and love with them.  Life is a wonderful gift and for that I am very thankful.

Someone Who's Made My Life Worth Living {30 Days of Truth - Day 7}

Today's truth: Someone who's made my life worth living for.

Yet another easy one... my three beautiful children.  They are my reason for living.  I know God gifted them to me to raise and care for.  I'm thankful beyond measure for this gift.  Without them, I'm sure I'd have other reasons to live but with them my life is so much better.  I barely remember life before them and I certainly would not go back there for anything.  Every decision I make, every day I rise, every laugh, smile, and tear comes for them.  They truly are my life.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Demonic Possession vs. Epilepsy {Epilepsy Awareness}


Did you know there once was a time when Epilepsy was considered to be demonic?  During this time, people assumed that having seizures equaled being possessed by Satan or one of his many demons.  Churches tormented seizure patients by torturing them and putting through exorcisms to release this so-called demon possession that never even existed.  Almost 100 years ago, seizure patients were locked in insane asylums to be dealt with because so little was known about Epilepsy as a disorder.  Parent's whose children had this disorder did not bother to deal with it but instead locked their child away at the doctor's insistance. 

Today the outlook on Epilepsy has changed a lot.  People now know that Epilepsy is simply a neurological disorder which results in seizures.  Still, this demonic possession theory has been passed down by many and it's our job as patients and parents to make sure the world knows that Epilepsy is not a curse from Satan but instead a disorder that can be treated with medication, among other things.  Children and Adults who suffer from this disorder do not need to be institutionalized as past generations believed but instead they need the support and love of family and friends to get them through.  They do not need people gawking at them in time of distress but instead need a helping hand and the caring assistance of others. 

To learn more about what to do to help someone who is having a seizure, please visit http://www.getseizuresmart.org/ and get seizure smart today!

Thankful For My Kids {30 Days of Thankfulness - Days 7-8}

Today I'm covering two days of Thankfulness because well I missed yesterday!  I am thankful that each day I am able to raise myself out of my bed and love on my children.  I am thankful for their sweet little souls that God has entrusted to me.  I'm thankful to be able to recieve and give sweet kisses to my babies everyday.  They are truly gifts from the Lord above.

I'm also thankful that I am able to stay at home with them every day and have them home with me.  I often see other Mothers send their children off to stay with someone else, stating that they want their children to enjoy being with so-in-so or that they "need a break".  Yes, we all need a break sometimes but God gave these children to us, as parents to raise, not to the community.  I'm thankful that I have the opportunity to raise the children God has entrusted me with, to raise them up in His name and His glory.  I pray one day when they are grown they will do the same with their children.  I know this is God's plan for me.  I bask in the glory of His love when I take up this cross of childrearing and do my best to succeed.  These days that they are young, I know I cannot get back and I will not give away these moments and memories to anyone else.  They are mine, and my children's to hold in our hearts forever, just as God cherishes each moment with us.  I'm thankful that He has blessed me so. <3

Something I Hope That I Never Have to Do {30 Days of Truth - Day 6}

Today's Truth: Something I Hope That I Never Have To Do

This one is easy.  I hope, I PRAY, that I never have to bury my children before they bury me.  I hope I die long before their lives ever come to an end.  I pray they live long, prosperous lives and have many years before God calls them home.

Something I Hope To Do In Life {30 Days of Truth - Day 5}

Today's truth: Something I hope to Do in My Life.  There's  a lot to this one too but if I had to choose one thing I'd have to say raise my kids to be sane, strong, loving, kind adults.  This is a very hard thing to do in this day and age.  So many things step in our paths that can turn us to very angry humans that it can be scary.  Depression is an easy thing to come by now-a-days too.  I wish for my children to be able to encourage others, be great friends and an asset to their communities.  I do not wish for them to be rich, or well-to-do (though both would be wonderful) but instead I wish for them to be simple and happy in what God provides for their lives (even if one day they come to not believe in God).  I want them to stand out among the crowd for choosing to be good in a sea of bad.  If I can accomplish guiding my children into an adult like this, I will have done all I hope to do in this lifetime.

Proverbs 22:6 ~ Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.

Life {Thoughts From me: November 8, 2010}

I missed writing my posts yesterday due to a lot of various things I had going on.  I'm planning to catch up on them this afternoon. 

Lately the kids and I have been doing a lot of stuff together: cleaning and school and just having fun bonding experiences.  They are very excited that Christmas is on the way and after that comes their birthdays.  It's a joy to see them so happy with life.

Personally, I've been reading away when I haven't been busy cleaning up around here.  I've recently read Passionate Homewives Desperate For God by Jennie Chancey and Stacy McDonald (review to come).  I'm currently reading Grace Based Parenting.  I have a list of about 10 books to cover in the next month.  My goal is to change my thinking as a housewife, a mother and Christian parent.  Already this is happening.

I look at life as the "world" views it, but I fail to see things as God has intended them to be seen.  I want that connection to God and that simpliness of Life in my own life.  I want them for my children too.  I'm changing my "world" view to God's view and it's a beautiful and glorious thing!  There will be much more talk about these changes in my future as my heart grows in God's glory.

My children are the most gracious gift God has ever given to me.  I am not perfect but in their eyes I'm everything.  I love this opportunity that God has blessed upon me.  I know that I'm a lucky woman to have been given this wonderful life.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Seizure Symptoms {Epilepsy Awareness}


There are many symptoms that go along with seizures.  Every person's symptoms are different.

Epilepsy.com provides a list of common symptoms of seizures.

It is important to recognize symptoms of seizures so that a person can tell what's happening to them or their loved one when a seizure is oncoming.  The symptoms can also help doctors to pinpoint a type of seizure pattern and find a solution or medication to help prevent the seizures in the future.

Thankful for Family {30 Days of Thankfulness - Day 6}

Today, I'm truly thankful for my family.  For my children.  For my Mother, my sisters and my brothers, my neices and my nephews.  A year ago I did not know them all and I'm thankful that this year the Lord brought the opportunity for us to know and meet each other.  I love my family so much.  God has truly blessed me in this.

1 Timothy 5:8 If anyone does not provide for his relatives, and especially for his immediate family, he has denied the faith and is worse than an unbeliever.

Forgive Someone Else {30 Days of Truth - Day 4}

Today's truth is something I have to forgive someone else for.  Without a doubt, this one belongs to my Mother.  I need to forgive her for the part she played in taking my kids and refusing to relinquish them over a year ago.  In some ways I have done this but there's so much more forgiving I need to do.  I have my children where they belong now, after proving DSS and my own Mother were wrong for taking them but the time lost with them is not replaceable.  It's so hard to forgive something as devastating as this was to me and my children.  In time though, I know I will find a way.

Micah 7:18-19 ~  Who is a God like you, who pardons sin and forgives the transgression of the remnant of his inheritance? You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy. You will again have compassion on us; you will tread our sins underfoot and hurl all our iniquities into the depths of the sea.

Forgive Myself {30 Days of Truth - Day 3}

My truth for today is something that I have to forgive myself for.  There's a lot to this one too.  I've made a whole lot of mistakes in my last 30 years.  I know they have all taught me many things that I needed to learn and made me a better and wiser person.  For that I'm thankful.

Three years ago, I jumped into a relationship that I shouldn't have just to have a way out of my marriage to my ex-husband.  I knew it was a bad idea.  God "told" me it was a bad idea, but of course, being the stubborn girl I am, I did not listen.  I thought "what the hell" and I moved in with this man barely knowing him.  It was the worst mistake I think I've ever made. 

He appeared to be great on the outside, but inside he was an emotional baggage wreck.  He claimed to be Christian and in some ways I guess he is but there is an evil side to him too.  He was bitter and unhappy with himself and it showed once you got to know him.  He took his anger out on his children more often than necessary.  He was not the good man he originally led me to believe he was.

I knew within months it was wrong of me to be there.  I was pregnant however and I wanted to give him a chance to be a good father.  In the end, he crossed lines with my other two children that should have never been touched and I found myself struggling to control my own anger with all of our children.  I knew then it was time to get out.

If I had listened in the beginning, I would have never gone to live with this man.  I would have never placed my children into harms way.  I would have protected them and made other plans. 

I learned a lot from this mistake and it's one I will not make again.  I will listen to God when he speaks to me, screams at me to tell me "no".  It's hard to do but when it comes to my children, I will do this. 

I don't know that I'll ever forgive myself for this mistake in my life.  Maybe once my children are grown and I know the terrible effects of this man on their lives has passed, I will be able to.  I know God forgives me and I know if I ask this burden and hurt will be taken away but I choose to keep it to remind me NOT to make this mistake again. 

1 John 1:9, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from ALL unrighteousness."

Types of Seizures {Epilepsy Awareness Month - Day 5}


November is Epilepsy Awareness month.  In order to better educate the world on this disorder I've decided to do 30 days of Awareness with a new blog post for every day of the month. 

Today I wanted to share about different types of seizures.  There are many different types, each having different types of effects. 

WebMD provides a list of different seizure types and symptoms.
Epilepsy.com also provides a list of seizure types.

I hope these links will help give you a better understanding of seizure types and how they affect your loved ones.

<3

Friday, November 5, 2010

Thankful for Winston {30 Days of Thankfulness - Day 5}

I'm am beyond thankful for my son, Winston.  He is such an inspiration to me and a huge help.  He rarely complains about anything asked of him and he does most things with a joyful heart.

When he was born, I was so thrilled to be having a baby but I was disappointed because I really wanted a girl.  I knew God had his reasons for giving me this sweet little boy but I did not realize those reasons at that time.

My sweet boy and I had two fun, learning years with just me and him together.  He was such a joy in those times, always wanting to be with me and always loving me regardless of my lacking parenting skills. 

When he was two, his baby sister was born.  I remember when I came home from the hospital, Win had to have a bandaid on his tummy so he could be like Mommy with her incision.  He was and still is the most adorable boy.

As his sister and he have grown, they have become best friends.  They don't always get along but they always love one another.  Their love for one another also inspires me and thrills my heart.

By the time baby sister, Laycie, came along, Winston was a pro at being a Big Brother.  He's been so helpful with her and loves the time he gets to spend with her when he does help take care of her.  She loves him and her sister too.

My boy isn't perfect by any means.  He was a whiner for a long time, whining when he was upset or frustrated.  He also has ADHD, though I've never had it officially diagnosed.  We've been able to manage this, along with his sisters' health, with routines, structure and plenty of rest.  Homeschooling helps to provide these things for all three of them.  He has days where he's overwhelmed and frustrated with things but he's always quick to get over the humps life throws at him. 

His spirit is warm and loving.  He's very shy and struggles with school due to ADHD but he always tries hard.  He does his work and helps out with a smile most of the time.

I know now why God gifted me this sweet little man first.  He has shown me love like no one before him.  He has encouraged me to be a better Momma.  He increases my faith in the Lord above. 

I'm thankful for this boy of mine, for all of his love and encouragement.  For his strong, yet meek spirit and his faithful love.  He's proof to me that God really does know what he's doing.

<3

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Seizure First Aid {Epilepsy Awareness Month - Day 4}


Reminding everyone that the entire month of November is Epilepsy Awareness month.  Stop by http://www.epilepsy.org/ to learn more about this disorder and how it affects the lives of so many throughout the world.  Be sure to check out the seizure first aid section to learn more about this disorder and how to help in case you are ever faced with someone who suffers a seizure.  Knowledge about any disorder is the key to making it better!

Thankful for Pets {30 Days of Thankfulness - Day 4}

Today's thankfulness is a simple one.  I'm thankful for my sweet little doggie Clairabelle and our sweet over-grown Labrador, Sassy.  Both our girls are extensions of our family. 

Sassy belongs to Josh.  She is his duck hunting buddy and well, his best pet friend.  He loves to take her with him on rides in the boat or truck, both of which she really enjoys.  He enjoys tossing her duck decoy in the pond so that she can fetch it back to him.  She brings his heart great love.

Clairabelle, or Claire as I call her, is my baby.  She's a lap dog at heart.  She loves to snuggle up next to me wherever I'm at and is never very far away.  She sleeps at my feet at night.  She kisses my toes to let me know she loves me.  She keeps me company and for that I love her.  She loves to fetch too and Sassy is her best friend.  It's adorable to see them together.

I'm not at all a dog person but Claire is one dog who has my heart.  She's my favorite pet ever.  I'm very thankful that I was lucky to find her from a good friend.

We are both thankful for our extended family members.  They make our heart filled with even more love than we can imagine.

Something I Love About Myself {30 Days of Truth - Day 2}

Today's truth is something I love about myself.  Wow, this could be a lot of things and so few at the same time.  I guess the one thing I love about myself is my heart.  Seems a little silly to say but it's true.

I love how simple I can be, how my heart fills up with joy at the smallest of things, how it runs overflowing when I know I've made someone happy or see my babies' smiling at me. 

Most of all I love the connection I feel to God within my heart.  It is the place where He speaks to me.  It's the place where I feel His love.  The tugging I feel to guide me comes straight from God, straight into my heart.  It's not the biggest of places but it sure feels immense when God fills it up with His love and joys.

I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, to allow my emotions to show to much, but in this most people always KNOW if I'm being truthful and honest.  I take things to heart, too, but for me it's a good thing, because straight into my heart is God's loving guidance to take those worries away.  And He does.  He takes them away and replaces them with good things every day.

I'm thankful for a strong heart, for a loving heart and for the joys I find there

As a face is reflected in water,
so the heart reflects the real person.
Proverbs 27:19


Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Learning To Read Through Struggles {30 Days of Thankfulness - Day 3}

I had other plans for today's Thankfulness post but the Lord has changed those to something else.  I have so many things to be thankful for, but tonight I am most thankful for the Lord answering my prayer to find something that my son will connect with in Reading and Writing.

My son is nine and he struggles with reading.  He's had a hard life in his few years and though I've done my best to teach him, I know I could have done better at times.  He has undiagnosed ADHD.  He has all the symptoms and I know his Dad has it too, so it's easy to see in him.  This was a big reason why I chose to homeschool him.  I didn't want him to be medicated for something that doesn't always need medicine to control.

I prayed a lot about homeschooling before choosing this path.  God quickly answered me with a big old YES by placing things in my daily path to show me homeschooling was right for us.  It has allowed my son to be comfortable with his learning disabilities and to go at his own pace, instead of being lost in the shuffle of public school.

Back to why I'm thankful:  Earlier today my son came to me with some very simple stick figure drawings he had made.  He had this whole book concept developing in his head based on Lego Star Wars, his favorite game at this time.  He asked me to help him write the words that are developing in his mind.  With his ADHD, writing the words out can be hard for him to do alone, especially when there are a lot of thoughts involved in the process.  So he dictates his story and I write it for him, letting him see his words come to life on the paper. 

Lately, I have prayed a ton to find something to capture this little boys attention and just get him reading more.  I have searched for the perfect book or subject for him but wasn't able to pinpoint anything that would really grab him.  That is until today.  This simple dictated book of his own making is the key to all I've been praying about.  God has finally answered me, in my own son!  It's absolutely amazing to me, and for this tonight, I am MOST THANKFUL!!


Trust In The Lord {30 Days of Truth - Day 1}

I found this on another blog.  It didn't mention where it came from first, so if you know please tell me so I can give credit to the creator.

30 Days of Truth - Day  1

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Today's topic is something I hate about myself.  This could be a LOT of things.  But I think the most important one is my inability to TRUST in God

Sure I can say I trust him, but still I worry.  Still there is a small piece of me that MUST remain in control.  This is NOT how God wishes me to be.  His wish for me is that I will hand all my worries and troubles over to Him to carry.  His wish is that I will live in his Glory and Love and TRUST in him to make all my worries right. 

I struggle with submitting my life to the Lord.  I lean to my own understanding and fail to see His ways when I should many times.  This is Human nature.  It is not God's nature.  This is why my paths are winding and unsteady, my life unsure at times.

When I do my best for follow God's plans for my life, I find straight paths and bright days filled with lots of enjoyment.  When I do things my way, I find my life mixed up and my days unhappy.  I prefer bright sunny days filled with singing and dancing, lots of LOVE and goodness

Lately, I've been searching HOW to give up my own control of my life and allow God to take control.  I'm looking forward to the day when I can look back and know that I have done this, that I have allowed God to show His Glory through me and through my ways.  I look forward to the day when I can truly say "Yes I trust in the Lord with all my heart".  I know I have just begun my journey but already the rewards are bigger than they seem.




Epilepsy Is Not Contagious {Epilepsy Awareness} Day 3


As I was sitting here, trying to think of a topic to write on today, I read this on the Epilepsy Foundation of Arizona's Facebook status: Fact of the Day: Epilepsy is never contagious.


And it's not.  You can't catch Epilepsy.  It just happens.  Sometimes it's triggered by some major accident.  Sometimes just from a simple change in the body.  Some people inherit it, as my daughters and I have.

Epilepsy is NOT a disease, it is a disorder.  It is a unbalanced electrical reaction of the brain.  I describe it as computer overload.  When a computer is overloaded, it will crash and shut down.  This is the same reaction the brain gives when a seizure happens.  The brain processes and overloads, then the body shuts down or rather seizes. 

For my girls, this happens when they are learning a LOT of new things.  It can also happen when we've had an exhaustive weekend like this past weekend was for us.  The girls will become overly-tired and I begin to notice their body fighting to stay on track.  They will have mild jerks or twitches while awake.  They will act "spacey".  They are excessively whiny and nothing can make them happy.  At their worst, they will fall into a convulsive seizure.

We have dealt with this disorder actively for 7 years now.  I know the signs and when I see them, I have the girls take a "rest" day.  We lay around, rock, love on each other, watch tv, read and do simple activities.  We also nap and go to bed early to allow our bodies plenty of rest.  Doing these things usually keep our seizure activity low and gets the girls back to normal within a day or two.  Homeschooling makes this easy for us to take "rest" days as needed.

Epilepsy never completely goes away.  It's always there, even when it's outgrown.  It could reoccur at any time but it is NOT contagious.  It doesn't rub off on you when you bump into my child.  It doesn't contaminate your skin when my child is seizing and you touch their drool or vomit, as the case may be.  And it is not caused by Demons as some people believe (yes there are those who actually do believe that). 

Epilepsy is a disorder that can be controled with routine, structure and most of the time with medicine.  Sometimes surgery or a special diet helps to control it (we will discuss more about those later). 
Dealing with this disorder is an everyday part of our life.  Each day we wake up is a blessing and each day we wake up without any signs of seizure is an even bigger blessing.  Seizures happen unexpectedly, so we must always be prepared for one to suddenly "pop" up.  This is our life.


On This Day In Christian History {Book Review}

On This Day In Christian History: 365 Amazing and Inspiring Stories about Saints, Martyrs, and Heroes
Robert J. Morgan
Thomas Nelson Publishers
$12.99
Buy it at Amazon.com

Amazing stories of faith from twenty centuries of church history.


From the Roman Empire to the Reformation, St. Valentine to St. Francis, Martin Luther to Billy Graham, On this Day introduces readers to a parade of preachers, popes, martyrs, heroes, and saints from 2,000 years of Christianity.

This introduction to 365 of the most interesting men and women of faith brings a year's worth of inspiration and spiritual challenge and offers an enjoyable glimpse into church history. Each day includes a related Scripture reading and a simple, colorful story about history-making events in the lives of people who loved God wholeheartedly.

This book tells a bit of Christian History for each day of the year.  The back of the book includes a reading guide broken down by inspirational section.  You can read this book many ways: as a day by day guide, as a inspirational devotional, or as a whole reading all the interesting facts at one time. 

The pages of this book are full of wonderful information about God's love, reasons, miracles and much more.  Every page provides an inspiring moment from the past, linked with biblical qoutes to bring it all together.  You will walk away feeling full of God's love and in awe of His word.

I have only read a few of the enticing pages of this book thus far, but I look forward to reading it day by day and feeling connected to the Glory of God and His inspiring truths and miracles.



Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Epilepsy Loss {Thankfulness post/Epilepsy Awareness} Day 2


Today when I got online I found out extremely sad news about a friend of a friend of mine online.  For the past week I have been praying for this beautiful family, whose daughter was suffering with constant seizures that the medical team was unable to stop.  This poor sweet child went through a horendous ordeal.  In the end the gracious Lord decided to take her home to Him.  Now this sweet Angel sits beside the Throne of God, while her parents mourn her passing.

I am terribly saddened by this news of this beautiful little girl.  My own precious daughters suffer from Epilepsy, a seizure disorder. At 3 and 4 months of age, respectively, I watched them both begin their battle with this disorder.  Although I, myself, have it, I never realized the impact or effects of it until they began their own journeys. 

My oldest, thankfully, was never too bad with her seizures.  They would happen, we would increase her medicine and they would be under control.  Thankfully, by the time she was four, her fight with this disorder was pretty much under control without the medication.  This does not mean that it's over for her, only that we can control it unmedicated at this time.

My baby has had the worst time of battling.  On the day she turned 4 months old she was placed onto medication, after being subjected to 20 different tests to see why this was happening and to make sure it was not abuse related.  Two weeks later her medicine stopped controling the seizures with no warning.  Laycie suffered 9 grand mal seizures and multiple petit mal seizures at 4 1/2 months old exactly in a 13 hour period.  It was the worst and the scariest day of my life, thus far.  The hardest thing I've ever had to do is sit back and watch my babies suffer with this disorder, not knowing if it will stop, not knowing if the medicine will work, not knowing if like the beloved angel mentioned above God will call them to Heaven.

Thankfully for us, God has seen fit to allow my daughters to continue upon their journey in life.  They have not yet met His purpose or fulfilled his Glory.  I am thankful, beyond measure, that He has blessed me with these three beautiful children and that He allows them to live each day.  I pray every day that this disorder will end with my daughters, that they will not have to watch their own children suffer through it and know the hardships and fear of watching their children suffer with this, as I have watched them, my mother has watched me, my grandmother watched her and my great-grandmother watched my grandfather.  I pray this is the generation that it stops with, but if it doesn't we will deal with it as it comes.  We are blessed that it is not something worse than this that affects our life and we are THANKFUL every day to have another day to love them, to hear their sweet voice and see their beautiful smiles, to fill our hearts with love and joy, just as God intends.

Please keep the family of the sweet girl who passed away this week in your prayers.  I weep for her mother and pray she can find Peace and Glory in the knowledge that her sweet daughter is now safe in the arms of our Father, never to have to suffer with this disorder again.


Monday, November 1, 2010

Our Halloween Weekend {Hallowen Fun 2010}

Everyone knows that this past weekend was Halloween.  Although many Christians disagree with even acknowledging Halloween, we don't agree.  We look at this day as being a family day for us and a fun time for our children to enjoy getting candy for free.  More than that though, we enjoy fellowship with many others, Christians included.

Our children chose to dress up as Star Wars characters this year, with the exception of our seven year old daughter.  Winston wanted to be Darth Vader, Emmalee chose to be a Fairy Princess with pink wings, Justain chose Obi Wan Kenobi and little Laycie was an adorable Ewok.

We began our weekend with a trip to Front Street to visit the town's many vendors and stores which provided candy.  This allowed us to fellowship with many of the town folk, friends and family.  It also allowed my stepson to spend family time with both my children and his Mom's children.  It's a great way for him to bond with both sides and see us getting along just for him.  The children truly enjoyed this first night of Halloween weekend.

Our second night of Trick or Treat was in Belle Isle at our family friend, Ms Jean's house.  The kids had a wonderful time going around her neighborhood to collect candy.  Josh loaded all the kids onto a trailer on the back of our ATV 4-wheeler and we went on a night ride through the area.  It was a ton of fun.  We ran into a convoy of other Christians who were out Trick or Treating as well.  Such a wonderful experience for us all!

Sunday night brought more fun for us.  We took our four kids to my sister's church for a fun night at their festival.  The kids were able to play games and win prizes and candy.  They had nachoes and cheese with sodas and Josh and I had Hobo Stew (veggie soup).  We had such a wonderful time together!  It was a much needed experience for us as a family. 

So though this weekend is not welcomed by many in the Christian community, we truly enjoyed our fellowship with others that we would not normally have.  It has brought our children and our family closer together.  I consider that to be a blessing and I look forward to having my sweet babies enjoy Halloween again next year.


On Fortune's Wheel {Book Review}


Cynthia Voigt
Simon Pulse Publishing

"There are some who say that the Lady Fortune
has a wheel, and all men are fixed upon it.
The wheel turns, and the men rise, or fall,
with the turning of the wheel." - On Fortune's Wheel

On Fortune's Wheel tells the story of an Innkeeper's daughter, who is swept into a dangerous world-spanning adventure through the kingdom with a handsome thief.  Through their many adventures they learn to work together and along the way, fall in love.  A tale that has enough energy and adventure for a series, this book has something for everyone.

This book was the first historical type romance I ever had the pleasure to read.  None has compared to the intrigue I felt reading it since.  It is my favorite of all romance novels and a book I read at least once a year.  It never fails to bring excitement to me.  Each time I read it, I find it more interesting.  It's a book I will always highly recommend.





I already owned this book and did this review because it as one I truly love!  No disclaimer needed but I'm included it anyways in accordance with FTC regulations!

30 Days of Thankfulness: Day 1

As I mentioned previously, I have decided to join in on 30 Days of Thankfulness over at Modesty is Next to Beauty. This began in October but I am starting today: November 1st.

Today I am thankful that I was able to get our blog changed for Thanksgiving, that I was able to complete my first post for November is Epilepsy Month, and that we made it through our busy Halloween weekend of fun.  I'm thankful that my girls and my boys are all healthy and doing well at this time.  I look forward to a week of school starting back tomorrow.  There is so much more but mostly I'm thankful that God has blessed me with this wonderful life I am able to live.  God's love is like no other and for that I am most thankful.

Until the next time.

What is Epilepsy? {Epilepsy Awareness}


November is Epilepsy Awareness month.  Epilepsy is an inherited disorder passed through generations of our family.  As infants both of my daughters were diagnosed with this disorder.  It has completely changed our lives.

To find out more about Epilepsy you can visit Epilepsy.org.

This month Luv'N Lambert Life will showcase information about Epilepsy.  The only way to change how those who have this disorder are treated is to teach others and Epilepsy education is what this month is all about for us.

What is Epilepsy?
The Epilepsy Foundation describes it as "a medical condition that produces seizures affecting a variety of mental and physical functions. It’s also called a seizure disorder. When a person has two or more unprovoked seizures, they are considered to have epilepsy.


A seizure happens when a brief, strong surge of electrical activity affects part or all of the brain. One in 10 adults will have a seizure sometime during their life.

Seizures can last from a few seconds to a few minutes. They can have many symptoms, from convulsions and loss of consciousness to some that are not always recognized as seizures by the person experiencing them or by health care professionals: blank staring, lip smacking, or jerking movements of arms and legs."  (taken from the Epilepsy Foundation: http://www.epilepsyfoundation.org/about/)

There is much more to Epilepsy but this is a very good description of the disorder.  Epilepsy comes in several forms that affect each person differently.  Sometimes more than one type of seizure can affect the brain.  We will discuss more about types of seizures later this month.

Get Seizure Smart at http://www.getseizuresmart.org/.

30 Days of Thankfulness {2010}

I'm a bit behind but I have decided to join in anyways with the 30 Days of Thankfulness event over at Modesty is Next to Beauty.  This event began on October 27th and ends on November 25th.  I will be beginning today (November 1st) and ending on November 30th. 

"Each day we will post something we are thankful for, or something that is pertaining to thankfulness,
such as a poem, a special song, a picture taken by you, or a painting,
or simply a bible verse to which you are thankful for that has helped you."



I look forward to joining in on this event of Thankfulness and hope you will join me too!   Don't forget to link back to the original site so that the others who participate can view your Thankfulness, also!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Strong Will, Strong Heart

Recently, I posted on The Homeschool Lounge about my struggles with my beautiful 7 year old Princess, Emmalee.  She is my middle child, my strong-willed, dive in head first girl.  She does things her way and when she wants.  This is how God made her.

My struggle with her is that she does not do things I ask, when I ask.  She tends to make life miserable at times because of her willfulness.  I want to change this in her, or at least show her how to use her strong-will for good and not misery. 

The first place to start is always Prayer.  So I have been fervently praying (for years now) that she will grow out of this behavior, and of course, she has not!  Well, recently it's dawned on me that this is how God has made her and He must have a purpose for it.  So now I pray for God to help me and show me HOW to live with this sweet, yet stubborn child.  I also pray that He shows her how to use her strong-will to do good things, as He intends her to.

This leads to my job.  I am her mother.  It is my job to train her to be a great woman, a strong woman, and hopefully someday a loving wife and mother.  How do I do that?  I can barely do these things myself. LOL  (Leads me to my own quest, mentioned last post, to strengthen my bonds with the Lord and become a better wife, mother and woman myself.) 

So now I am looking for yet another thing.  I'd like to find a book that will show me all the things I want to show and teach her.  Some will say that is the Bible and of course it is, but I'd like something to go along with that.  I don't want a book on discipline measures, but instead a book on changing our (mine and her) hearts to better serve the Lord and how to use our strong-wills for His purpose as He intends. 

Any suggestions for this matter are more than welcome.  And when I find what works, you can bet there's gonna be a post about it!  For now, onward searching.

Thirsting for More

I just finished watching A Night With The King, the story of Esther, Queen of Persia and was immediately reminded of this post I have been meaning to write.  (BTW, that was a REALLY GOOD movie!) 

I am currently on a quest to fill my heart and my mind with knowledge of the Heavenly Father.  I have a thirst that I am in need of filling, to learn so much about Him and what He wants for my life and that of my children and family. 

Recently, I read Out Live Your Life by Max Lucado and I plan to re-read it again in the future, taking more time to study each chapter as Lucado meant it to be read.  I'm also anxiously awaiting my recently gifted (won) copy of Feminine Appeal from Jasmine at Far Above Rubies (see sidebar for link to this wonderful site!)  Today I purchased (online) a copy of Passionate Housewives Desperate for God and I can hardly wait to dive into to it when it arrives.  I've ordered several books for the kids also, that we will be working on together.

I feel God pushing me to learn all I can about Him and His wants for me.  I want to learn to be the Proverbs 31 woman He wishes for me to be.  I want to teach my daughters and my son to be all God wishes for them to be, to have patience and love beyond normal expectations with God leading their life.  I am so very excited to be following His loving guidance onto this path that He's leading me upon.  I can't wait to see how it changes and improves our lives.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Out Live Your Life {Book Review}

Out Live Your Life by Max Lucado
Published by Thomas Nelson
Available in bookstores and online at Amazon.com

Max Lucado proves once again what an inspiring Christian author he is in Out Live Your Life.  In this book, Lucado shows examples of how Christians in Jesus's time led ordinary, and yet extraordinary lives, and he challenges each of us with suggestions and questions that lead us to out live our own ordinary lives.  In true, What Would Jesus Do form, only instead showing us how ordinary men became disciples of Jesus, sharing the Father's Word and leading other's to Christ himself.  At the end of the book is a section of questions to dive even further into each chapter of the book, creating an in depth study of Out Living Life or at the very least, living life to the fullest for God's Will.  Anyone aspiring to Out Live their own life for the Glory of God will greatly benifit from reading this wonderful book.  I know it has touched my life, like many other books by Mr. Lucado.

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